When you receive an "Academy Golden Grammy Mirror Ball"...

I firmly believe that when something you've worked hard for finally comes to fruition, you thank the ones that got you there. So for my acceptance speech:

I'd like to thank PREG (pregonline.com).
Dr.Nichols, the man with a plan
MK, always with a smile and positive outlook and up for a laugh
Lindsey, kind and caring with not just the good news but the bad too (lets be honest she knocked me up-lol)
Renee, tough to crack at first, but so informative and always ready to answer questions as long as I didn't google...oops
Stephanie, feels like a friend from the first day you meet her
To the vampires in the lab- not even a bite and I was there enough.
To the ladies at the front desk- always a smile, and NEVER a wait!
Jenn R, for being a hand holder, that I know and understand she can be truly happy for me and sad for herself at the same time- I love you for this. Soon, my friend, soon!
Nevaeh, I can't wait for you to be a big sister, you have waited "FOREVER". Notice I didn't say patiently.
Last, but not least, Brandon (babydaddy).... If I said there were no words you would never believe me,so.....



(Aaron Lewis "tangled up in you")

If i didn't list you, you are not forgotten. I'm sure the music is playing me off the stage by now, so goodnight!

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It's not official until it's facebook official...

So much for catching up before calling the presses. Brandon likes to be first at everything. If you want to know the full story start at my first entry....they're short. For the short of it we are 10 weeks pregnant. The McNeely's will have a new member in May. It has arms and legs (now looks like a turtle), moves and wiggles and is the SIZE of a GRAPE!

In the beat of a heart..

October 5

Nothing can or never will top the day that Nevaeh was born. That feeling is one that will never leave my mind or heart. I say that to say today I had my second best moment. I heard my baby's heart beat for the first time (7wks-145 for anyone that wants to speculate-lol). I was overwhelmed, because for me this is all still very surreal. I have something that resembles a chicken embryo in my uterus, but it has a heart that beats just like mine and yours. It is 9mm long and yet it has a HEART that I can hear. Am I the only one that gets a gut punch from that??


Brandon's artwork

Target with a good reason....

September 14, 2011

THIS IS THE DAY!

I woke up this morning resisting taking a test.  I thought that if I didn't take one, it would give me a little more time to hope.  So, late this evening I begrudgingly made the trip to Target to get the value pack of EPT (digital mind you....we can operate on a heart, but can't do too much better than one line two line).  When I got there I found my true reason for not testing early.  I ran into a dear friend that has been struggling with infertility as well.  I knew right then and there I was in Target for a reason.  My friend needed someone to talk to that UNDERSTOOD....that may not sound like much to many, but it's everything for someone struggling with this.  An hour later I headed home, with my test all but forgotten due to my ache for my friend.  Once home I reluctantly tested, believing that once again BIG FAT NEGATIVE.  So I peeked back in and it had flashed up PREGNANT in less than a minute....this had to be wrong.  I dropped it 3 times trying to go tell Brandon.  There was a moment or 2 when I thought I was going to stroke out I was shaking so hard.  I couldn't talk, so I dropped it in his pocket (baggy...couldn't even tell lol).  When he finally found it--"You're pregnant?!?!" well yes this was the goal.....

NEVAEH'S 8th Birthday Extravaganza

9/10/11

It's hard to believe that it has been 8 years since that first moment she was born. I fall in love with her a little more every day. She is every piece of everything good in my life. Birthday's are a big thing in our house. There were bouncy houses, tons of kids, 100's of cupcakes, magician and memories. I know that there are many more memories to be made, but I love to live in the moments that make them. Pics to follow when I actually get them on this computer-ha!!





The first pics of our possible family of 4 :)

Something normal

9/3/11

Brandon's "Have a Heart" 2nd annual poker run was today.  It has been forever since we did something that just felt normal together.  It's all been work or doctors, today was a little piece of normal.  It was a moment of reflection on how far Brandon has come in 2 years.  I'm so blessed to have a husband that has defied odds once again, and a beautiful daughter that has every piece of my heart.  It brought tears to my eyes to see the amount of people that came out to support my husband.  I did have one moment that let me think of what could be.  When we were riding between stops, I leaned forward and told Brandon "This could be our baby's first bike ride".  He said he had already thought of that.  It was a perfect day (well, if I hadn't had to rush to work)!!!

Time to try again

8/31/11

We tried to make you today, I had my second IUI.  You could right now be forming in Mommy's tummy.  We will know after Nevaeh's birthday.  September 14th is our day.  Sometimes it really does all come down to one single tiny defining moment.  I hope this is ours.  All the meds, belly bruises and tears will be worth it (hopefully sooner than later).  I feel really good about this cycle (timing and gut). So for now I get to pretend you are in there: I'll take my vitamins, eliminate caffeine and everything else to make you healthy.  So, if there's a chance of you forming in there, hang on little one and STICK FIRMLY!!!  I'll do everything I can to keep you in there until I can hold you in my arms.

Daddy told you the same thing-he loves you already too.  Nevaeh doesn't know about you yet (she knows we talked to a Dr about you), but I can't wait to tell her she will be a big sister!